Hi, please do not be sad.. :)
learning a language is an ongoing process and there is no shortcut to it.
you must not feel shy to speak, and always need to be hardworking.
you may want to enrol in some English lessons by private schools or if you don't mind i have some old English lesson books want to give away, you can have it all... :)
please let me know if you are interested, you can contact me at 94307715. My name is Stanley.